and so many things have happened!!
like work... and austin... and... okay, that's pretty much it.
and i've been waiting to update because, well, for the same reason we all hate blogging.... the time it takes to edit and upload pictures. ANNOYING.
so i apologize that i don't have many pictures yet. i will show some from austin. and i do mean SOME. because who forgot to clear her memory cards before the trip? THIS GIRL! bummmmer.
in other news... i'd love to share a little bit about what's been going on in my head lately. obviously i've been dabbling in photography and you know, its funny, because i asked the hubz for a camera because i wanted to be a good photographer for our family. and then i got it and all i wanted to do was take pictures of other people! we are about to be married for a
anywhooooo... i was talking with my dad about this hobby that has turned into a serious passion (this coming from a girl who has never been passionate about anything. other than popcorn, that is.) and i just don't know what to do with it.
YES. i want to be a photographer.
YES. i know it is obscenely trendy and everyone and their baby daddy is doing it.
but what does that mean? that i don't try because other people are already doing it? well that just sounds pathetic.
so, we started talking about what i could do and how i could go about doing it. being a marketing major, obviously there is a ton to think about, visualize, and strategize. so dad encouraged me to just stop trying to get going so quickly and think about what i'm trying to accomplish here.
branding. that is the first step... so today i drug out some white butcher type paper and some colored markers. i put on some pandora and got to work. i just started thinking and writing. about who i am. who i want to be as a photographer. what i want my photos to mean. all that good stuff.
it was so freeing to just let whatever i was thinking out on paper and not keep it inside saying, internally: no that's stupid. or overused already.
i'm definitely not done. i crave more of these nights where it's just me, some music, yummy scented candles, and my body just exhaling the pent up creativity.
so all that to say... i think i am reaching a place where i'm a weirdo. :) literally i am wanting to just spend all day being "creative". whether that is dancing, crafting, photog-ing, writing, learning graphic design, baking, you name it.
and since i'm well aware that that won't pay the rent, i'm stuck in my routine, day-to-day sameness, it is difficult to feel free. does that make sense? or maybe sound dramatic?
i just have this desire to BE. to CREATE. to live and act with heart abandoned.
sigh. can't just BEing pay moneys? guess not. so back to the same 'ole, same 'ole. which is good, after all, my job, house, an life are a gift from the Lord. so there is goodness there. i just need to explore how to unite these two segments of my life.
the end! except! i want to make sure that every post in November has a reason i am thankful
#1
i am thankful for a husband who keeps me sane when my family does not do exactly what i want them to.
(like go to the piano bar in austin. ahem, ahem DAD, MOM, and SISTER.)
:)
HAPPY THANKFUL MONTH!
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