my perfect world of imperfection

okay. as an avid blog peruser, i've come to the conclusion that everyone's life is perfect. ignore for a second that i'm being a debbie downer or negative and seemingly complaining... i just want to point out the fact that if all you know about someone is what you read on their blog, you probably would assume that they are golden people that never get sick, never have fights with their husbands or children (or God), don't have the trendiest or cutest clothes, and are 100% excellent at crafts, baking, cooking, and decorating (add in photography or wedding planning if you would like).

ew. i put a sarcastic tone in this blog. sorry. it was just supposed to be an observation... but anyway. in the spirit of keeping things real (because the fact is.. i want to be that person with the perfect family who is good at baking and such), i will now reveal some things that i'm not good at and parts of my life i don't have all together.

1. singing. humming. whistling (i can't). basically...i cannot make beautiful noise (even my talking is loud and obnoxious!) unless your ears are God's. (if you would like to pray for the ears of the Lord, i am not opposed...)

2. i don't get a lot of mail. when you work permanently at a summer camp, there is a lingering mindset that you should still be getting mail from friends. well, i don't. and it's totally fine... i'm not complaining. i am however acknowledging the fact that people who don't work here anymore get more mail than i do. it's okay, i like to say its the quality, not the quantity! :) and the fact that due to graduation, birthday, and a wedding... i'm still getting some moolah sent to me, and you can't complain about that!

3. i'm not good at saving money and clipping coupons. i want so badly to be dave ramsey! or some one who can buy a house in cash! or someone who can spend 30 bucks at the grocery store and buy a month's worth of food. man. i am impulse buyer extraordinaire. in fact, right now things i want but shouldn't afford are a return address stamp, photoshop, an external harddrive, a body wave, 3 pairs of new pants, a guest bedframe, etc...

4. many times i don't feel intimate enough with the Lord to extoll it from the rooftops. it's because i'm not seeking him, or "life's not always lived on the mountaintop"or something else, yadda yadda yadda. just know that i won't always be the one blogging about my bible study that day. hope that doesn't make me less of a christian. but if you want to pray for more consistent intimacy in our relationship... i'll never be opposed to that either! :)

5. i'm uber selfish. i don't thank my husband enough for putting up with half the crap that he does. i never want to admit i'm wrong. i am lucky beyond all get out that i married someone with such commitment and determination. not to make him seem perfect, he's not. and i'm wayyy wayyyyyyy not. and he still falls asleep next to me every night. it is an enigma to me that God so awesomely engrained in him the qualities my selfishness would demand. like patience.

i guess that's why we tend to make our lives seem perfect... because through all the crap, and uncomfortable situations, and inabilities we were born with, somehow the goodness of God and of life tend to overshadow those negative aspects. it overwhelms the bummers of life and eventually we forget about them and the good sticksout i our mind. it overcomes the bad days, moments, and situations and reminds us that imperfection is probably better than a perfect life... if you don't know the depths, you can never experience the heights. right? i don't know... maybe that's dumb...

anywhoo...if you haven't seen my wedding pictures (and you like that sort of thing...) you need to go check them out on facebook! because even though it rained (and stormed) on our wedding day... it was the best day ever! now isn't that a perfect analagy for what i've been blogging about? :D ha.

THE ENDDDDD! PROMISE: next blog... will be way more light hearted! deal?